i envy

HAPPINESS. AND SMILES.

this is just a bad dream. and when it ends, everything will be alright. one day, i will woke up from my sleep with a smile on my face. and on that day. that smile of yours is going to be upside down. cherish what you have now. because one day, when you crash, you will feel what i feel. heed my word fool.

love,

B.

changes

Ego= Self Control

my ego is going sky high. im scared. im scared that when someone knocks, i wont be able to let him in. im scared to think that i had given up. the positive thing is, i think loneliness is apart of me now. im able to wake up and go to sleep without talking to anyone. im capable to handle my problems without crying and telling someone. im capable of not asking and talking anymore. im terrified because this is not me. ive become a cold hard stone. i wish that everything will just go away. i dont want anyone to save me anymore. im gonna try and save myself. even though it will be hard and that i will cry everyday.

this past few weeks.

Im single. I dont even know I can be one. Tahan juga ooh. Truth is, serious relationship in this kind of age is what we call bullshit. Happy endings exist, but not for me. Im not giving up. Its just Im gonna give love, its own sweet time to come to me. So when it comes, Im gonna give it a big welcome.

So. Life's update. Due to me being single. I started to developed my old habit. cheating and lying is in my blood? :)

and I found a new hobby, hobbies to be exact. I bought this.

satisfaction orang bilang ;)

ohh, and i bought a Nikon d3100. Bila I dah terer baru I upload gambarnye la ye. Skarang ni, I masi newbie lagi, malu laa kalau gambar tak lawa. Bukan mau go pro ka apa, just to have fuuun, minta pujii kunun, tambirang-tambirang :D

ohhh. must show picture.

haha. mcm takut ni mau ambi. kin malu seja :D

Note to self: not today, not tomorrow but someday.