After a while,

I have this thing where I strive to change from a person I used to be. You can say, I don't rely on my family much except staying at their house, use their electricity and eat their food. And I even gave them my share of income for that. Okay, that is still relying. Other than that, my car, my clothes, my fuel, etc etc is on me. So when Ive become troublesome. And bothering them with my fault and careless of things. I tend to fell down on my butt, really hard.

This relying on others shoulder are not that easy to avoid. I don't want to, but it is easily given, so I accepted it, knowing that it makes me weak.

PS: Dear car, now I know how important you are to me. I'm sorry if I did bad stuff when I'm inside you. I love you so much. Please don't do this to me, Ill send you to the car wash this Friday & I wash you every time you get dirty & even vacuum you, raining or not okay.