Rewind

Years have past since I'm that girl, a girl who doesn't care, whom think loitering is more fun, friends are important than family, who didn't even think of her future, who rebels a lot and got her ass kick by her daddy and ended up forced to go to the police station. Yaa, I know. Nakal :)

When I think about it. A lot has change. I am now, as people call it, more mature. I don't change my boyfriend like I change panties anymore. I didn't argue with my parents like I did last time. Um okay well, only that day when I insisted to bring the Swift since its an automatic car, but my mum being herself, well Mummy Monster insisted me to bring the Myv instead. I cried and slammed the effing door. But I ended up bringing the Myv. Kalah la ba tu haha.

But the only thing that never change, I prefer not wearing make up and I don't wear heels. I think natural looks is more nice and um nicer. The conclusion is, well maybe one day I'll change. and you'll see me look like a clown and wear something that makes sound when I walk.

My future is everything, I'm trying to make my superb parents to be proud of me :) they are everything and my boyfriend is also everything.

Speaking of boyfriend, currently I'm darn happy. You can scratch and erase my last post from your mind. I'm in relationship with Theodore John, again. I'm giving his second and the last chance. Note this: John, If you break my heart again. I stabbed your asshole with a knife. UNDERSTOOD?

and I also feel kinda weird and awkward, yesterday, at college, when that Madam talks about boyfriend and girlfriend stuff, about not studying bcs layan GF/BF. Apa nda, people looks at us ba. FUNNY. Note this: Do you ever saw us repeat paper, and FYI, not to be proud, but maybe kan, our GPA, and CGPA is probably better and higher than yours. Kan? :)

LOSER. roger and out.

p/s: Going to Cican's place with Theodorable. Tunggu ahh chan. Kijap lagi kami otw ke Nilai suda tu.

unpredictable

Yet again, I feel the same pain I felt before. Trembling hands, Hard to breath, The sound of me, gasping for air and crying. and yet again, theres no one to pull me up. no one there to say that it will be okay. lost, nothing to depend on.

All I wanna say, Im officially single.

After all this year of being in a relationship, and never once I am left alone. I think I'm single. Yes, he broke my heart. Who knew? The guy who buys you roses, buy you an expensive cake, twice, and a guy who spends his time doing surprise card and surprise party. Who waits for you when you came home from work. Held your hand when you sleep, Kiss your lips like he mean it, Gives you a stupid kisses before you go to sleep. Can just broke your heart into tiny pieces, just like that.

Susah mau naik balik bila jatuh. Susah untuk cari boyfriend baru bila suda lama nda single and nda pandai mau mengurat suda haha. This is when I need my friend the most. This is when I miss that time, bila ada Maxine di sebelah to hold me up. Friend, I miss you. Jadi kan, kalau boli, aku mau sendiri la dulu. Kalau boli lahh. Cukup untuk bukti kan aku nda perlu ada lelaki untuk go on with my day.

Jadi, di sini. Kalau Theodore John baca. Im letting you go. Ini maksud dia, the end of us. Im sorry Im making this public, but I dont think kita able to bercakap kalau berdepan. Bcs apa yang keluar from your mouth is tottaly bullshit. I dont care if our batch know we aren't together anymore. Actually, I don't really care if anyone know. You can go and move on with your life. And I will do the same. You really broke my heart, I didn't expect this from you. When I said I had lots experience with guys, I have. Lying to me won't solve a thing.

Sincerely,
Bibey.