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You know. I feel that life is hilarious. Especially when you are the eldest and the only girl in the family. And you're almost 21 years old. Absolutely hilarious. Its like Im carrying 10 tons of rocks on my shoulder. I need to protect my little brothers.

My mum, she's like a superwoman, I know she can hold on to this. But when your dad is super hot, plus still young. It makes a lot of things like shit happened. My dad has all the criteria that a daughter & a son would die for. But not what a wife would want. Please, please think of us. Think of your children. :(

what the fuck i want?

What I want is, a body like this, and I need to be skinny. Okay, I know its dumb to ask fr stg like that. But seriously, I want to be skinny. So I can fit into anything, and can wear anything that I want. For that to happen, I need to stop eating uncontrollably.
and what the fuck, look at her leather jacket. I want that! I WANT THAT!

and and I need to do my hair. I think I'm going to perm my hair, again. Maybe next month. I cant stand this frizzy, dry and messy hair I'm having. and I wont ever, ever again cut my hair short, once is enough. I miss my long hair.

also, I need a new phone. My LG cutey is sick. My cutey cant vibrate anymore and when I charge the battery, it will never be full. Kecian kan? So gimme a new phone, NOW.
to be exact, something like this, or anything that associated with it :)



so, xo.

:D

Research is making me confused. Madam said, our title is nt convincing at all. And Im also confuse about everything, including my own work. But since Im the one who lead typing. Im doing my best. Its also for my marks sake & my group sake. I want to improve my CGPA. Like Miss Sharon says, we can use our Semester 8 result to apply for work. So I was thinking Sabah Medical Centre? Not for eternity, just until I can get a post basic & a degree. & I should be paying my debt and not relying on my dad. If I can buy you that Nissan Mothertrucker now, dad. B kasi beli ba. Too bad Im still using your money to survive.

& for the previous post. Im not sorry. and for a second thought I shouldnt be putting my blog in private. Its for the whole world to see. Its the truth. and everyone can shut the fuck up and read it :) No lies here.

Btw, theres too many haters acting tough in fb, but too bad not a single courage in them to even confront me. but if all of them confront pun, no use. Why? Bcs clearly dorang suka ampit-ampit ja, other words, penyibuk, in english, busy body. and I dnt have anything to say to them. and I've promised John & Christine, and to prove to John's so called friend, that I wont be starting any drama scene. Bcs of if I started first, haters will say tht Im childish lmfao.

However, didn't they ever think that by posting comments which actually make themselves childish than I am, what a joke to say others childish.

So holla to all you haters. Pick a side, it doesnt matter :)

perang

Kalau kau rasa kau cantik? Cantik lah kau. Kau la yang paling orang kagum-kagum kan. Kau la yang paling cantik di dunia ni.

Kalau kau rasa si John tu sampah kau? Ba sampah lah dia. Tapi kau cium juga dulu kan.

Kalau kau rasa aku jilat ludah kau? Eww. discusting, nda berus gigi pagi-pagi.

Kalau kau rasa aku jealous? Umm nda mungkin lah since John obviously teda hati sama kau lagi.
Tiada perempuan gemuk in the new chapter of his life.

Kalau kau rasa best nda mandi pagi? Kau lah yang paling fresh pagi-pagi.

Kalau kau rasa english kau yang paling bagus? Heran juga aku, 'spit' pon jadi 'split'. PALING TERER.

Kau la ba yang hebat, mengalahkan princess, princess lah kali hakhakhak :D

buruk siku

Clearly, aku teramat marah. Okay. Bolih cakap full-blast marah. The story goes like this.

Pada satu hari, ada la seorang perempuan ni, mahu kategorikan di blog yang dia bitch or slut. Nda bolih lah juga. Mana la juga aku kenal dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki kan. Tapi since dia interrupt aku punya relationship, aku kategorikan dia WHORE lah juga & dia punya minions pun sama level lah juga sama dia . So, a few months ago, or a few years back when aku belum lagi sama boyfriend aku yang sekarang ni. Bolih cakap, si John ni dia punya lah.

Sebelum tu, aku story sikit dulu okay girls and boys. Aku bagi kamu satu situasi lah. Kau sama boyfriend/ girlfrend kau ni lama suda sama-sama, share everything, dia ada problem, of course lah kau tolong kan, nda kan tinguk seja and kasi biar dia tunggang langgang sana. Where is the love kan?

Jadi si whore ni, dia tolong la si John ni. What an angel. Angel kepala hotak dia lah. Dari version or side of story yang aku dengar. Dengan rela hati, without expecting anything back, dia bagi la duit with intention to help her poor boyfriend. Then, nta kenapa, dari lubang jubur ntah siapa, after dorang nda sama-sama. Dia tagih balik duit dia. No offence to the chinese, tapi buruk siku punya cina.

Semua orang yang pernah ada relationship pun habis banyak juga duit. For example kan, nda payah la jauh-jauh, tinguk aku seja lah. 3 years punya relationship, bolih cakap total up suma puluh ribu juga habis. Nda kan aku mau tagih sama Ex aku."Bayar apa yang aku bagi and spend kau". Nda ka bikin malu. Ketara betul nda sincere ni ba time sama-sama. And dont even let me start pasal berapa tahun couple. WTF? One year seja kamu? What a joke.

& FYI, aku tahu salah si John. Tapi kalau nda sincere, jangan la kasi duit tu, biar lah dia sendiri susah sana. Tinguk, nda ka susa untuk kau lagi bawa susu besar kau tu kesana kemari tagih duit. Macam buduh juga kau ni. Bird brains berabis ba kau ni.

Oh yes, kau punya minions pula, heran aku. Mau tinguk aku sampai mau ter keluar ba biji mata dorang. Duh. On the first place, knp juga kau mahu buat ANTI- BIBI ni. Kau ada perasaan kali masih sama si John ba ni kan? Give it a break la whore. Terima lah hakikat kamu nda sama-sama lagi. Apa kau harap? Dia masi head over heels untuk kau lagi. Dream on. Nda faham aku, maybe pasal kau teda boyfriend ba ni. And kau desperate suda untuk dapat semua attention dari lelaki yang kau bolih manipulate kan. And yang paling funny lagi kan, minions kau tu kan, macam si John tu pun Ex boyfriend dorang ba. Dorang pn mahu lah juga sibuk-sibuk meng-anti aku.

Please leave him, us alone. and pasal bayar balik ni. Selagi aku nda bagi green light, kau nda kan dapat the money. Kau ter berak cacing ka sana. Kau mau buat plastic surgery untuk kasi hilang lemak kau ka. I dont care. I dont give a flying fuck. And sukati dia lah mau buat apa with his money :)

Ok done.

I am hoping you will read this.