cakap kosong.

10.2.11

Riddles.

I suppose that I cant control everything. I shouldn't get attached to things that I will never know where it will end up. Everything seems like out of place, or am I the only one who feels that way. My mind is not at peace.

Ignorance is the best medicine, and to ignore is not to care, and not to care is not to give all of me. Well done for the new achievement. I cannot own everything. Might as well be alone and lonely, but alive and in peace.

I was given a choice. and I didn't pick the past. Probably because it was full of lust, and I cant decide whether theres love at all. I'm stuck between the two. But I have grown up, I have changed, so I decide well, and this is the best. Hope so.

13.1.11

disagree

feeling useless, empty and unwanted.

i think i need to be alone fr this few days. im disconnecting myself from everyone, everything. maybe this is the best. im switching off my phone. im gonna stay away from facebook. i just need time to think. im just all messed up. i dont want to know.

cause no one cares. so my thoughts are for me to keep.

love,

3.1.11

paling comel :)

budu juga. kabak jantung aku. Senyum smpi telinga ba bahaha.

Im officially in love. Seriously budu.

Im gonna put all my past aside and start something new, hoping that this is not some lame relationship that will ended up with nothing. I didnt give up after all. and Im giving him a big welcome to my life, my bullshit and my alter ego. He should brace himself cause it will be a bumpy ride but ill make sure it will be worth it :)

comel kau ni budu. you dont even know how you make me feel. bunga-bunga pula tu aku bahaha.

28.12.10

understanding

gosok gosok mata.

because, nda betul kali mata aku ni. atau biul suda otak aku :)

so apa yang mau ditekan kan di post kali ini.

1. respect us, boys! where all the respect goes? mana boli sembarang seja, kan? saya tau la bibir kau comel bahaha.

2. lelaki cool is hot as fuck. kabak jantung. aku pnya ja la. dia nda kali. doesnt matter. bikin mimpi malam seja :)

3. exes should stay as it is bcs. it will never work. my sayang fr you will still be there, bt nt as much.

4. wearing glasses are the ultimate fire power nowadays.

5. BCE is well, teda tandingan nya.

6. colleagues kissing your cheek when working is a big no no.

7. using iphone or BB doesnt make you awhhshome. kalau si cici terasa, apa boli buat lah.

Love,

19.12.10

a friend said

aku jual mahal?

is it not a good thing?

or is it whats keeping me from moving on.

16.12.10

straight.

im doiiin aaaaa-ohhhwkaay. actually, im not. im a mess. but im glad. everything happens fr a reason. this decision is maybe fr the best.

so, ive straighten my hair. and some say it looks better than the perm look. but, i feel awkward with this new look. i dont feel right. mcm nipisss seja suma. nda suda grebos. wheres my uniqueness go? out the window.

btw, thinking of dye-ing it extremely blonde. tapi, nda beraani ;/

jadi, ko pikir ko saturang seja boli gambar gini? haha.

2.12.10

kudos

kudos to me for changing my boring life to something exciting.

i know that im changing, because my mom started yelling at me due to balik lambat, everyday.

its like im becoming the old me, but better. with her own money to spend and a car to drive.

im not even sure if this is the side effect of my breakups. but all i know is, i dont want to stay and pout, and cry the whole day at home.

i had a great night today. ive met my long lost bff, maxine :) we talk. and talk. at first it was totally awkward, we didnt have anything to say. but then, we started talking until we ended up talking in the car fr 30 minutes more, outside of her apartment. her advice, beats all others. she knows me well. we think alike. thats why true friends are to keep.

btw, im changing my digits. tomorrow, i think. since i still need to wait fr digi to confirm the number and activate it, they will give me a call tomorrow, so i hope i get the number that i requested.

Dear you,

maybe it will look like im avoiding things. but letting go doesnt mean im weak, it means im stronger to walk away and give you the freedom that you claimed that im keeping you away from. This is not childish. I have grown up. Its just that you are still far away back that you cant understand exactly what i meant. You are not ready. You are still just a boy. Let exes be exes.